or atleast i have a semblance of freedom that i haven't felt in over a year.
For far too long i've let my happiness reside in the hands of other people.. letting them pull and push me, bending over backwards and hurting myself all this while for what?? i honestly don't know the answer to the question, looking back, i feel like going back in time and kicking some sense into myself. What the actual fuck was i thinking? Whatever..... those are things of the past now. Ever since i realized how stupid i'd been, my life has gotten a whole lot better, i had a whole lot bottled in me that i recently let out.
I woke up and decided to approach everyone that was causing me some sort of stress and let out my issues with him/her. What took me so long? I'm not even going to lie, it felt so GOOD! I said what i had to say, watched them squirm and lie, calmly combatted their lies and got to the bottom of everything, resolved the stuff that needed resolving, aired the dirty laundry and removed a lot of idiots in my life.
I feel so empowered! i feel like going on t.v. and announcing just how happy i am!
Maybe now i'm not so distracted, i can give myself another shot at writing.. hopefully it's still in me somewhere. My expectations for the next couple of months are super high!!
Heres to a not so bummer summer.... filled with fun, laughter and lowkey love ;)
(oh... and i got my belly pierced! there are 5 more piercings i wanna get by the end of the year!)
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