I believe in God and in heaven but not hell.
I believe in material things.
I don't believe in time travel and i don't believe a nation's flag is on the moon.
What do you believe in?
You must believe in something.

Sunday, August 26, 2012

Hell is for sinners

and murderous sickos.
and creepy pedophiles.
First of all, this isn't a Give-Your-Life-To-Christ-Now-Or-Else Speech.
This is just a fragment of my current stream of thought.

I believe in God but i rebel against him everyday.
What is this sin we have surrounded ourselves in?
People seem to think there a lesser sins and greater sin.

James Holmes (Dark Knight Shooter) is going to hell right? everyone seems to think so.
I mean, he killed all those people, he deserves to, right? RIGHT?? Because murder is a sin and everyone believes that killing is a sin.

Fornication/Adultery is a sin!
Lying is a sin!!
Not keeping the sabbath holy is a sin!

These are the most common sins we indulge in, day after day after day.
We are the devils little freedom fighters!

I just listened to the dumbest argument ever, where someone i'm ashamed to call my friend boldly said "God has to understand our generation is different and times have changed. Sex and white lies should be okay"

Excuse me?
Yes our generation is different, yes times have changed.
Do you not notice that even over thousand years after the supposed events of the bible took place,
after all these years of change and evolution, the 10 basic commandments instructed to us by Moses (as given to him by God) still hold large ethical value in society?
If a murderer is a sinner (which he is)
then you my dear, are a sinner too.
God does not 'understand' that you cannot control your lust.

Before i get too worked out about this, i'll end here, I am not particularly calling anyone a sinner ( for those that believe in and worship God, we are all sinners. I am a sinner too and i am not proud of it.

All i'm trying to say is that I just think that all the sins in the 10 commandments bear equal weight.
The ramble ends here.

Tuesday, August 7, 2012


Welcome it,
Don't fight it,
Embrace it,
Let it fill you. Absorb it.
Become about it,
Get used to it,
Grow with it,
Let it motivate you.
Allow it to build you up,
then break you down,
For as long as it takes.
Until you're cold and numb.
till you can't feel anything, even if you wanted to.
Only then can it leave,
and never return.
The pain...

Wednesday, July 25, 2012

Too familiar.

I've felt this way before,
so i know where this is going.
I've lived this way before,
It left me sad and lonely.
I told you this,
You edged me on.
A feeling of bliss
that you let soar.
You waited till i was at my highest.
And then threw me down.
Down into the pits of your irrelevant fury.
Sentenced to death by a paranoid jury
of your fears.
Good intensions, Bad decisions.
Awkward moments, Weird Positions.

I hate you.

Maybe so?

    He kissed the balls of her feet, then she felt his tongue go slowly up her naked body, licking her legs,placing tiny kisses on her bum and the arch in her back, leaving behind a little damp trail.. still he went on. She giggled, he couldn't possibly be licking her right now could he? She tried to imagine what she tasted like, probably like the mango body butter she had lathered on her skin earlier today and a little bit of sweat, it had been a hot day. He had worked his way up to the nape of her neck, he paused, then took a deep breath..
'Paco Rabanne?' he asked,
'yeah, how'd you know?'...
'My sister bathes herself in the stuff'. Silence.
      She could hear the tick tock rhythm of a clock somewhere, she wondered what time it was, and whether the others even noticed she was gone.
She shouldn't be here, that much was certain and if the others ever found out...No. They were never going to find out, this was a one time thing, no strings attached, an experiment. What could go wrong? She was only gonna be young once right? right? Deep down, she knew this would change everything.
Fuck morality.

Murphy's Law

Life has a funny way of repeating itself. 
Only it's not so funny when it happens to you. 
Why don't the good times ever come back?
Why the pain and struggle. 
How can i spend all this time and effort only to end up exactly where i started?
Fuck this. 

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

Carrier Pidgeons

Please leave a message after the tone

Um... Babe? Not sure if I can call you that... *deep breath* Hey!
... Got a lot on my mind lately... What's going on? You good? ..
*mutters* this is stupid..
I'm going straight to the point then..See the thing is... We fucked up, yeah.. WE. Not you, not me, WE. I figure we owe it to ourselves to set things straight....
*sigh*  Don't get me wrong, I don't want things to go back to the way they were.. But I just... I'm not even sure what I'm saying right now... *silence* ....... But the way I see things, we need to talk, face to face... Fuck all these awkward texts and calls...  No mind games, no bullshit... Just honesty.... It's cool if you don't wanna talk though..um... Don't mean to be rude but.... See... I don't need you in my life..... But I want you there  ... So if you're cool ... Hit me up, let's see what we can do.. And if you're not... Cool still.. It is what it is.. So yeah... Safe.

*Call Ended*

Monday, June 6, 2011

You know what I've done but not what I've been through... Feel free to judge me anyways :)

I used to be afraid of getting judged!
But people are gonna judge anyways.. it's human nature.
'I don't really give a fuck.. and my excuse is that i'm young' - Drake
need i say more?
This is a poem i wrote last february... a couple of days to valentine's day and inspired by real events. I sometimes re-read this and smile.

Is It Just Me??

You’re with her
I’m with him
Is it just me?
Or do we keep staring at each other?

Did I just smile at you?
Did you just wink at me?
Or is it just me again?

I felt a jolt
When we shook
You kissed my hand
My Legs went weak
That was definitely just me!!

I Love your eyes
You love my lips
And all that flirting
It certainly wasn’t just me.

And that Kiss
My God
That Kiss
For sure, that was both of us!!

But I still have him
You still have her
And we have each other
In the Shadows
For Now…..

And Someday…..
Maybe someday…..
Nah... That’s just me again!!